Olivia's first shopping trip!

On Wednesday, as an effort to get myself out of the house, I gathered up the courage to take Livi on an outing to Portland. My sister works at Nordstrom and was dying to see "her baby". Despite a late start (Livi likes to blow out her diaper at not so convenient times!) we made it to Portland without a hitch and Livi was such a good traveler. We had so much fun and found some great deals at Baby Gap. We had such a great time, but as the pictures shows, it really tuckered Livi out. ( :

A New Woman!!!!

Oh my.....I feel soooooooo good! After many tears shed and feelings of guilt, I let little Livi go to my parents for a "sleepover." Since breastfeeding has not worked and Olivia is getting formula, my parents begged to take Livi for a night. I cried for awhile after she left and kept on calling to check on her.......but I tell you what, 9 hours of sleep can do wonders for a woman! I feel sooooooo much better and ready to tackle my day! I have handled being a mother as I have handled many other aspects of my life.....I see a picture of how a "perfect" mother should be and beat myself up if I don't live up to that. I really need to let go of this idea of perfection and realize that I am Olivia's mother and she will love me just as I am and I also need to realize how blessed I am to have my family right here in town and take advantage of their eagerness to help. You would think I would have leaned by now how fruitless it is to strive for pefection! God made me how I am and He appointed me to be little Livi's mother....just as I am. ( :

Baby acne.....

Does anyone have advice on how to treat baby acne? Poor little Livi has a pretty good case of it and I was just told to wash her face with normal soap and water and wait it out, but it just doesn't seem to be getting any better! poor dear girl!

Tough.....

I didn't know.......

a. How guilty I would feel that breastfeeding isn't going very well. Who knew having PCOS would affect my milk supply.

b. Recovering from birth isn't as easy as I thought. Third degree tears aren't pleasant.

c. Looking at my baby's sweet face seems to make everything better. ( :

My little lady.......

I am Human again........

Oh heavens....obviously, I am not the best blogger, but I am finally feeling a bit more human since my little lady has been sleeping more, so I have resumed some activites, i.e. computing!! Being a mom has been so wonderful and rewarding, but I must admit, there have been tough times. It is crazy what a severe lack of sleep and preggo hormones can do to one's head! Add that to pretty major breast feeding issues=a crying mess! Thankfully, I have the most wonderful support in my husband and parents....I don't know what I would do without them! Also, it is amazing what just a few more hours of sleep and fresh air can do for a girl!!! All in all, I am in complete awe of my beautiful baby girl and can't imagine my life any other way!!!

Olivia Jane is here!

Olivia Jane Hewitt. DOB 03/31/09. 7lbs 1 oz and lots of hair!!!!!